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Sunday, June 4th, 2006
8:25 pm
[angelofpain28]
Over thinking
Sometimes you say things you dont want to say, but the words come out before you know what hits you.
Sometimes you do things you dont want to do, but you realise that if you care about the end product you will do them.
All you can do is hide the pain and move on with life, pain is a part of everyday and though it may rule your heart it cant rule you head.
Remember this when you are faced with a tough decision and decide which end product is more worth it.
You will realise that while you still have pain you also have passion and passion is a powerful tool that shapes and molds a person.
And dont be ashamed of these feelings, everyone has them and while other handle it differently, you must do whatever is most comfortable to you because it is your life, Only you have to live it.
All that matter is that you live with no regrets because regrets mean you didn't full fill life to the your full extent.

Current Mood: contemplative
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
10:12 pm
[angelofpain28]
Our story is no fairy tale
It’s simple, sad and true
And if you don’t want to hear it
It’s time that you withdrew

In your head it’s so easy
The love you give and take
Or am I just misunderstanding
Were all the syllables fake

Was my heart too willing
To make a place for you
Cause when you said good-bye
I realized that it’s doomed

If heartache was an ocean
I know I’d surely drown
If love were a pair of wings
I’d fall right to the ground

Now this angel has fallen
Her wings all slick and black
And now its time to hide
To avoid another attack

Will she rise again
I suppose no one knows
All that’s certain is the pain
But that’s the way the story goes
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
9:03 pm
[angelofpain28]
posting
It's been 5 months since anyone has posted in this group. I miss seeing everyone wonderful work. I have been severly over worked as far as my job and it is difficult for me to come up with new stuff, but hopefully sometime soon i will be able to repost.
-Angelofpain28
Monday, December 19th, 2005
7:39 pm
[angelofpain28]
a work in progress
I'm very hesitate about puting this one on here becuase its a work in progress. but i am open to suggestions.


Follow the white rabbit down it’s hole
To the entrance of my world
Your key opens my mysteries
Step inside and try not to die

Shrink my heart by just a taste
But taste the truth its bitter sweet
Avoid the mad hatter and all his delights
Because the queen of hearts has your head tonight

Have you noticed I’m your Alice
Have you noticed I’m your wonderland
Have you noticed I’m all around you
Have you heard them say its through
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
9:54 pm
[angelofpain28]
Slowly I know that I'm doomed
To sit here inside my tomb
And here I sing these same old songs
While I seem to repeat all the wrongs
Everything seems to be on repeat
Even every step by these two feet
And somethings never seem to change
Especially my love will never rearrange

I reach out only for your hand
I trip and fall on the same old land
Because your gone with me no more
And all I have left are these sores

Get up dust off the dirt
But thats not what ever hurts
Its becuase of you that I've fallen
And that is my only problem
Your hand was not there to hold me tight
And it's becuase I have lost the fight
You wouldn't care if someday I die
And that is why I know sit here and cry

I reach out only for your hand
I trip and fall on the same old land
Because your gone with me no more
And all I have left are these sores

Becuase of repeat one day you'll be back
And soon to follow you'll nail in another tack
And stupidly I'll sit here and take it
Because it's my life story, now do you get it
My love for you keeps me here
And you have the key don't you dear
Maybe one day I'll snatch my freedom from you
But until then I know one thing that's true
And that is that I love you
Now based on this what will you do?
9:51 pm
[angelofpain28]
i sleep a silent dream
over slipping through silent seams
and if you wake me i will cry
cause everytime you touch me
i feel i may die
Sunday, October 9th, 2005
9:26 pm
[angelofpain28]
Pain is the thing
That let's you know you're alone.
Lonelyness is your only friend.
And heartache is the thing
That lets you know
You live a life without a friend.

Searching for the soul
To be your keeper
Finding that the one
Is not there either.
Feeling your life
Is all a waiste.
Seeing that everyone
Left in haiste.

No one to walk by your lonely side
No to talk to but the passer-by's
Even their hearts do not see
Even their looks seem to flee

Go ahead now
Take another hit
Even though your body's
In a fit
And like the others
Dont pay attention
To my sorrow
The ones I've mentioned.

No one to walk by your lonely side
No one to talk to but the passer-by's
Even their hearts do not see
Even their looks seem to flee

Pain is the thing
That let's you know you're alone.
Lonelyness is your only friend.
And heartache is the thing
That lets you know
You live a life without a friend.
Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
10:53 pm
[4rock_clash]
manifestation
Without you I cannot confide in anything

The hope is pale designed in light of dreams you bring

Sunner's gone, the day is done soon comes the night

Biding time, leaving the line and out of sight...



It runs in me, your poison seething in my veins

This skin is old and stained by late September rains

A final word from me would be first for you

The rest is long but I'll go on inside and through...



One moonlit shadow on the wall

Disrupted in its own creation

Veiled in the darkness of this fall

Is this the end - manifestation...

Current Mood: calm
Monday, November 22nd, 2004
1:21 am
[angelofpain28]
The Plot of my Inspiration- Cradle of Filth- Nymphetamine
Laid to the river
Midsummer, I waved
A "V" of black swans
On with hope to the grave
And though Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones

Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain....
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision

Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine

Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission

None better...
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.

Wicked with your charm
I'm circled like prey
Back in the forest
Were whispers persuade
More sugar trails
More white lady laid
Than pillars of salt...
(keeping Sodom at at bay)

Fold to my arms
Hold their message away
And dance out to the moon
As we did in those golden days

Christening stars
I remember the way
We were needle and spoon
Mislaid in the burning hay

Bared on your tomb
I'm a prayer for your loneliness
And would you ever soon
Come above onto me?
For once upon a time
On the binds of your loneliness
I could always find the slot for your sacred key

Six feet deep is the incision
In my heart, that barless prison
Discoulours all with tunnel vision

Sunsetter...
Nymphetamine

Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, this vampyric addiction
To Her alone in full submission

None better...
Nymphetamine

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
Nymphetamine girl.

Nymphetamine, Nymphetamine...
My Nymphetamine girl.
Thursday, November 4th, 2004
1:45 pm
[angelofpain28]
To my Wolf</i>


Crimson heart
Blood red stain
We're never apart
It's what keeps me sain

My heart it longs
For only you.
This same old song
still shines through.

You're my creature
Hidden in night
With every feature
That shows your might.

To me you're soft
Treat me like the moon
Come to me often
But never too soon.

My love you think
I fear your claws
And your teeth will sink
When your hands are paws.

But I know you, sweet.
And you're loyal true
always at my feet
I'll always have love for you.


Current Mood: lonely
Sunday, October 10th, 2004
10:21 pm
[angelofpain28]
crimson marks across my face
It happens when you make me wait
This feels like a damned race
But silently I know my fate

I sit here watching as time roll by
And still I know that you are mine
But all you do is make me cry
And now I know that that is fine

i know that I think of you contanly
but that's cause youre all that I need
And this I feel hauntingly
now kiss me and watch me bleed
these crimson makes are not from pain
Their from the hunger that you feed
Inside I'm completly sain
Now kiss me and watch me bleed
Kiss me and watch me bleed

Anger sparked like a match
And I stalk like a cat
I know I'm your only catch
Laying along this crimson mat

I hide in the dark of night
Here I stand with retracting claws
Waiting for when time is right
Now I have you under paws
i know that I think of you contanly
but that's cause youre all that I need
And this I feel hauntingly
now kiss me and watch me bleed
these crimson makes are not from pain
Their from the hunger that you feed
Inside I'm completly sain
Now kiss me and watch me bleed
Kiss me and watch me bleed
Saturday, October 9th, 2004
1:08 am
[angelofpain28]
Sometimes it Hurts
Six o'clock in the morning
My head is ready to explode
I can't believe I made it home alive
I don't remember where I went
Or what I was drinking
And now it's made me sick
And I'm not denying
That I get this way
When I try to get over you
I get this way
When I try to get over you
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love

I tried so hard to hate you
But it only makes it all worse
I only end up hating myself
And as my hatred grows
So do the lies
It's hard to face the truth sometimes
God I feel so useless
God I hate myself
When I try to get over you
I hate myself
Will I ever get over you

Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love

And after all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel
But no
I only think about myself
And it's driving you away
I always knew it would one day

Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Sometimes it hurts
So much to lose the one you love
Saturday, September 18th, 2004
4:21 am
[angelofpain28]
I sleep the silent dream
Over slipping through the silver seams
And if you wake me I will cry
Cause everytime you touch me I die

The dreams are ladden black
Like the fur across your back
But can I escape you this is a no
Cause you know everything I know


Current Mood: sleepy
Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
1:30 pm
[angelofpain28]
Contemplative
I've done this all before
Why do I do this all again
And though I told you this before
It doesn't seem to ever end.
The story lines never change
It's still a little game
The character's just rearrange
But pain still stays the same.

Why do I go through this for you
Don't you see what this has done to me
And you say you have these feelings too
But do you stop this pain from hurting me

I never know the status
Of a single relationship
Is this way of life contagous
Or should I settle with friendships
Cause I have these feeling for you
Here inside my heart
And I dont try to control you
But this is tearing me apart

Why do I go through this for you
Don't you see what this has done to me
And you say you have these feelings too
But do you stop this pain from hurting me.


Current Mood: contemplative
1:10 pm
[angelofpain28]
Lil' Porcleain Doll

Sitting here thinking to myself
"Please take me off this display shelf"
Your pretty lil' porcleain doll
That's always slammed against the wall.

Why do you treat me this way?
Leave me in the sun all day,
Never put me in the shade
Letting the painted smile fade.

Break a finger; it won't hurt
Throw me to the ground; cover me with dirt
Your pretty lil' porcleain doll
You treat like an old rag doll.

Tears fall from this clay face
Cause I felt the pain was all a waiste
Your pretty lil' porcleain doll
That's left outside in the rainy fall.

And why do you treat me this way
Leave me in the sun all day
Never put me in the shade
Letting my painted smile fade.


Current Mood: sick
Friday, August 6th, 2004
9:09 pm
[angelofpain28]
Underneath

Waking up this morning
Thinking this can't be real
But they say there is nothing love can't heal
Why don't you come on down
So you can feel what I feel

Sitting all alone in this place
Even though we're here face to face
There is nothing gone
But there's something wrong

Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe
So take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath

I know what to say but don't know where to begin
The fear of losing you beneath my skin
Is there resolution for this pain that I'm in

Sitting all alone in this place
Even though we're here face to face
There is nothing gone
But there's something wrong

Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe
So take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath

If only you could feel what I dream
Maybe you could hear what I mean
There is nothing gone
But there's something missing

Can't you see that I'm stuck here underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe
So take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath

Cause I'm stuck here underneath
And you're making it hard to breathe
So take a look around and tell me what you see
You'll find me underneath
Friday, June 25th, 2004
11:48 am
[angelofpain28]
So here's my update: Stephen has been here with me since Wensday and we were suppose to head back today, however i over slept and now we are leaving tomorrow. I feel horrible.


resolution resolved
time for me to dissolve
shovel tar in this hole
and let it burn like the coal

and when this sun starts to set
will i still be your pet
the one that rises with night
the one thats calling your fright

cause im the demon in your dreams
the one that likes to be mean
and digging in the claws
loves when blood falls

cause im the devil in your head
im the one thats turning you red
and ill sink my teeth in slowly
but i think of you only



will finish later

Current Mood: annoyed
Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
11:13 pm
[angelofpain28]
Last cry out
Lost and now alone
You have gone away
Sins I cant atone
Light gone from the day

All that's left is pain
Stretched across my face
Lost all my sanity
Emotions cant be placed

My heart has gone
All I can do is cry out
There's no more dawn
There's only sad doubt
The conclusion that is drawn
Makes me wanna shout
And you have now withdrawn
It's me that does without

Pain is here in my heart
And then there comes the jealousy
Cause you and I are now apart
None of this will ever seem rosy

Even with all God's powers
That I know you believe in
You wont wait the hours
The room continues to spin


My heart has gone
All I can do is cry out
There's no more dawn
There's only sad doubt
The conclusion that is drawn
Makes me wanna shout
And you have now withdrawn
It's me that does without

Can't you see me cry
I feel I've been short-changed
Every thing has died
And nothing rearranged

Our moon it did not rise
And the werewolf did not come
Cant there be a compromise
Cause now I'm only numb

My heart has gone
All I can do is cry out
There's no more dawn
There's only sad doubt
The conclusion that is drawn
Makes me wanna shout
And you have now withdrawn
It's me that does without


Current Mood: stressed
7:26 pm
[tarawen]
umm
Hey how do i join a community and what is a community?

Current Mood: confused
Tuesday, April 13th, 2004
10:13 pm
[angelofpain28]
i wanna get away
and hide from the day
loose myself in you
but im afraid this cant come true

i dont wanna have this fight
i only wanna hide from the light
loose myself in you
but im afraid this cant come true

i wanna know the way you feel
tell me if this is for real
loose myself in you
but im afraid this cant come true

i sit and try to smile
after walking long miles
loose myself in you
but im afraid this cant come true

you know i love you
this i truly do
loose myself in you
but im afraid this cant be true

if i tell you what's bothering me
will you understand completly
loose myself in you
but im afraid this cant be true
i do i love you
so please allow this to come true


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